Another Thousand Circles Round the Sun

So, once again I have found myself playing the waiting game. I reported for my routine colposcopy this afternoon. My doctor had assured me that the only reason she had recommended me to have the procedure done was because of my past history of surgery. Well. Of course I agreed. Cervical cancer is no joke. It kills. Seriously people, it is not something to take lightly. The specialist explained that she agreed with my doctor and that she didn't expect anything to come of the procedure. She started off the appointment by explaining everything she was going to do to both me and to her student. When she said that she would give me an injection of lidocaine before taking a biopsy I tried to joke that we wouldn't be needing to take any biopsies today. Everything was going to be normal. I also told her that I have had to have this procedure twice before and both times I needed biopsies and neither time was I offered lidocaine. My doctor explained that it typically makes you more...

So, tonight my boyfriend had wanted me to go with him to a friend's house. Sounds great right? Sure. But, I don't play video games. Why would that matter? Well, it is essentially guy's night and they will be playing all sorts of video games. I was told there would be a few other women there, but they all play video games. I would be forced to sit and watch, which next to nothing to contribute to conversation, or play and be horrible. Well, I chose option B. I decided to stay home. I wanted to work on a couple of blogs and see if I would be able to ear a little on-line. That was when I had the idea to spend time on myself. I have been working two jobs for the last five years and this past year has been particularly brutal. The majority of the year at my full-time job I have been working overtime. I feel spent. I feel like I am running a marathon at the olympics and have fallen just a half mile before the finish line. I can see the end, but I am struggling to finish the rac...

The other night I picked up my boyfriend and we went to a bonfire at a coworkers house. We were sending off another coworker that was moving away. It was a great time. Since I was driving I limited myself to two beers and stopped drinking and switched to water several hours before we left. Everyone had brought food. Now, it was your typical bbq food and nothing was out of the ordinary. Since the event was quite far from where I lived and I still had to take my boyfriend home (who at the time lived about 45 minutes away from me) we left a little before all the fun was done. When I got to my boyfriend's house I decided to come in to take a nap. Yes, we just took a nap. About an hour later I woke up, still tired but a little better to drive. Or so I thought. My stomach felt a little weird. I didn't quite feel that I needed to vomit, I wasn't hungry, and it wasn't gas. I just didn't feel right. My boyfriend didn't have any pepto or tumms so I decided that I would ...

I have never really been one to hide personal things. Of course, I don't mean to say that I share everything about myself to everyone. That would be a little silly. But, there are somethings I am more than comfortable sharing if I feel that someone will get something out of it. What I mean is: if I think you might be able to learn from something I have gone through I will share my experiences. I have had a lot of things happen in my life. Overall, I feel that I have been pretty lucky. I feel that I have learned a lot about how to deal with unexpected events. My adventures, mistakes, triumphs, and everyday life I will share what I feel others can learn from here. I would imagine that some stories might be more exciting that others. But, that is how life goes. I don't think I could handle a life that was completely nonstop with problem and hurdle coming at me one after another. But, on the flip side I don't want a life that is completely dull and has no excitement. May...